Month: March 2011

On the Attack

crow and mockingbirdToday I want to speak a little about how we beat ourselves up… why we beat ourselves up and how to stop the cycle.

I would say that the majority of us have done this in one way or another… we do something or don’t do something and then beat ourselves up over it.


I should have said ….

I shouldn’t have said….

I should have done this… or that …I could have done more…

I could have gone farther…

I forgot this .. or forgot that ….

I could have ..

I should have…

Why didn’t I…

Why did I….

blah blah blah … the possibilities are endless..

Why do we feel so much guilt for things we did or didn’t do?

Why then do we torture ourselves with it? Going over and over in our heads .. arguing with ourselves and convincing ourselves that we are less than we should/could be.For some, maybe making ourselves feel bad is so familiar that it feels safe to us.. of course we don’t “knowingly” do this … but we do it.Feeling bad can be so common to us that when there is nothing else to make us feel bad …. we then abuse ourselves in one way or another.. sometimes it is by talking ourselves down… sometimes it is by making decisions that we know are not good for us… and sometimes it is more like a constant arguing with yourself. How do we stop this cycle?

Heck if I know!! I still do it … for instance:

This past weekend I fell and hurt my hip and knee … I’ve recently signed up at the YMCA and am on a mission to rid myself of this excess weight I’ve been carrying around … so this week I have gone to the gym .. I have worked out .. but not full force. My thought is that I don;t want to push myself too far and hurt my knee more and then not be able to work out at all… but as soon as I tell myself that is the reason for not going full force.. I feel guilt .. I know I can do more and so I argue with myself over my own answers…lol.. it’s madness! I feel bad for not doing more … even though it truly is a possibility that if I do push myself to go all the way that I could really strain my knee to the point of being out of commission for a while.. so why can’t I be happy with what I have done.. why beat myself up for what I haven’t done?

Getting myself to the gym and doing what I’ve been doing this week is far more than what I was doing so why is that not enough? Why do I feel the need to beat myself up over it? Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…

I know many of you will relate…

Over the years, I do feel that I am doing better at not beating myself up as I use to.. but it still happens … I’m guessing the key is to become aware that we are doing this and once it begins.. STOP! Let it go no further. Pat yourself on the back for noticing and for putting an end to the torture to more forward. Once step at a time…

Many Blessings and healing hugs,


Have You Ever?

Today’s post is dedicated to all those who have found themselves in that deep dark hole of depression, loneliness and sorrow. It happens to all of us at some point in time. Life becomes complicated and messy… there are days when we just can’t deal with what life brings us or we just don’t know how to cope. So many reasons that we can find ourselves in this dark place. Life throws at us so much, sometimes it is just too hard for us to take on.

I want everyone who finds themselves in this dark place to know that you are not alone. This happens to us all and the thing I want you to take with you from this post is that … it is never forever… the pain, loneliness, sorrow, depression is temporary and you can overcome it… there will be light again.

Reach out to your friends and family to help you through the difficult times. With much love and understanding I send to you all great big healing {{hugs}} and well wishes.




Have you Ever?

Have you ever found yourself so sad you didn’t want to get out of bed

Crazy thoughts run through your mind, like what if I were dead

You begin to wonder if suddenly I were no longer here

Would anyone notice, would anyone even care

Your world seems so dark and sad

You wonder, why does this feel so bad

It feels like there will never again be light

It’s so hard not to give up and continue to fight

You wonder what’s next and how much can I take

Then you think maybe I’ll close my eyes and never wake

But then you realize this is no way for your life to end

So you pull yourself together and cry to a friend

Letting go of the misery and all the pain

A friend shows you that there will be light once again

You are not alone in this fight

There are others who feel the same, crying in the night

So let tomorrow be the beginning, a fresh start

And let go of what burdens your mind and your heart

Nothing good ever comes from wishing you were dead

So snap out of it and get your ass out of bed!


I’d like to say something about the last line above…
I know it’s not as simple or as easy as getting out of bed… but the first step forward IS getting out of bed.



Many Blessings,


A Colorful Life

primroseI’m guided today to speak about color.  Spring has sprung and soon the Earth will be painted with many colors.

Pay more attention to the colors in your own world… color has a great affect on you, your health and your mood.

Spirit will be speaking to you through colors in the coming days so pay attention.

Even your dreams will have color in them from time to time for some and for others like me .. all the time.


Here are a few general meaning of some of the more popular colors:

Red symbolizes: action, confidence, courage, vitality

Pink symbolizes: love, beauty

Brown symbolizes: earth, order, convention

Orange symbolizes: vitality with endurance

Gold symbolizes: Wealth, prosperity, wisdom

Yellow symbolizes: wisdom, joy, happiness, intellectual energy

Green symbolizes: life, nature, fertility, well being

Blue symbolizes: youth, spirituality, truth, peace

Purple symbolizes: Royalty, magic, mystery

Indigo symbolizes: intuition, meditation, deep contemplation

White symbolizes: Purity, Cleanliness

Black symbolizes: Death, earth, stability

Gray symbolizes: Sorrow, security, maturity

Try this Meditation I found online to help balance and heal through colors:

  • Sit comfortably with your eyes closed.
  • Visualize a large ball of radiant Golden light a few inches over your head. Visualize that ball of light slowly descending through your crown, filling your entire being with golden light.
  • Imagine yourself absorbing that light as it nourishes, cleanses and heals your whole being – your Spirit and all of your bodies – dissolving all blocked and toxic energies.
  • Repeat this exercise, visualizing a ball of Red light. Continue through the entire spectrum like this, visualizing a ball of Orange light; Yellow light; Green light; Blue light; Indigo light; and Violet light. Go through the spectrum at whatever pace feels appropriate.
  • Take some time to visualize yourself in a state of perfect, radiant health

Many Blessings,

Crystal Digging

Well this weekend a few of us made our yearly trip to Sweet Surrender Crystal Mine in Story, Arkansas just outside Hot Springs, Arkansas … as usual it was fantastic. There is just something magical about putting your hands into the Earth and pulling out a treasure.  The weather was cold and rainy but the treasure hunting was cleansing. I know you are thinking … how can digging around in the dirt and mud be cleansing … lol.. I’m not sure this is something you can understand by reading… it’s something you will have to experience for yourself.

The weather this year wasn’t so nice to us… but every year we learn something new about digging for crystals.

Year 1 – we learned to go before it gets too hot! and wear lots of sunscreen and there is really only one tool you truly need.
Year 2 – we learned go after it warms up hahahaha … and again there is only one tool you truly need!

We shall see what next years lesson will be.

I love Becky and Randy, the owners of Sweet Surrender.. they are fabulous!

Sweet Surrender is such a peacful place … I just wish this year the weather had been nicer to us. It was cold, windy and raining this year, but that didn’t keep us from digging.

I didn’t find as much as last year but that was partly due to the weather as well. I did however, find some really nice crystals this year and can’t wait to start cleaning them up.

Below are a few pics of what I found digging around in the dirt for a day!

Many Blessings,

The Candle

There is a candle glowing inside me
Dare to open your eyes and take a peek
Come on, see what you can see
Is it strong or is it weak

 Sometimes I feel it wavering in the night
But still, I am lit from within by its light

Flickering away deep in my soul
This light tho aged, never grows old

Swaying in the breeze
Its flame never does seize

Though at times it seems to douse
The light is always there
Ready to roar like a lion or hide like the mouse

It burns steady, deep inside my soul
I’m sharing it with you now, so you’ll also know

This burning flame starts in my heart
But fills my whole being, my every part

Always there, ready to roar
Filling me with the ability to soar

Now its up to me from here on out
To hold that light in or let it shine, let it shout!

There is a candle inside me, glowing ever so bright
Do you dare take a peek
A quick glance at its light?

There is a candle inside me….
Burning bright every day and every night!

Come on take a look and you will see
That’s my light and I share it with thee.

Many Blessings,

The Light Within

There is a light within us all…  there is also a darkness ….

We have a choice every minute of every day to embrace either side …. or……..


Take a moment to think about your own inner light,

Do you nurture it?

Do you smolder it?

Do you keep that light kindled?

What do you kindle it with?

Do you feel the warmth of your own light?

Do you allow it to shine?

Do you dowse it’s flame?

How do you feed your light?

Do you feed it?

Are you afraid of it?

Are you afraid of what others will say or think when they see your light?

Do you know it’s color?

Do you feel it’s strength?

Do you know where it lives?

Just a few questions to ponder while you sleep tonight.

Don’t be afraid to shine your light on the world…. the world could use more of us shining our light instead of hiding it away.

Many Blessings,

March 2011 – Super Moon

No matter where you are along your path in life… we are all living beneath the same “SUPER” moon.

Not all are fortunate enough to get a good view of it’s brillance tonight … but have faith in knowing that it glows just as brightly in your sky behind those clouds as it does in my not so cloudy sky.

Step outside and have a look .. enjoy it’s brillance and take in some of that amazing energy.

Go ahead.. it won’t hurt!

I see the moon and the moon sees meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…….

Blessings to everyone this night and every night.