The Cardinal brings us a message today, it reminds us of our own importance. We are important and everything we do is important. As we are all connected, our actions effect others in ways we don’t realize.
We were all born knowing who we are. Over the process of growing up, we have all of these outside influences telling us who we are and who we should be… parents, family, friends and teachers all telling us who we are and what we should be doing. We loose our own truth. Years later we get to a point in our lives where we find ourselves wondering what happened. We ask ourselves… How did I get here? Who am I? What do I want? It’s confusing to say the least. We then have to go through the painful process of figuring it all out again. Find the things that light your soul on fire and you will find your true self.
Here we go with my first update on MY YEAR to ENJOY BEING ME!
I was walking through Hobby Lobby today and started down an aisle to look at a giant clock at the other end. There were tons of mirrors in that aisle.. I try my best to avoid mirrors…. the horror of seeing what I look like out in public.. cringe. Just before I got to the clock I turned an saw myself… I paused, stepped back for another look and do you know what??? Other than the typical stuff…. yeah I need to lose some weight, blah blah blah, etc… there was nothing wrong with that reflection. That was me and I’m not all that bad to look at. A bit fluffy but if I really want to change that, I can!
For years I felt so unattractive, not from words said or actions toward me but more because of a lack of actions and just the feeling that I got. One knows when someone else finds them attractive and that’s something I haven’t felt in a very long time. When that feeling is absent in your life long enough, you begin to think you look how you feel inside and inside I felt that I must be hideous. Why else would that feeling of mutual love be held back from me so much? I certainly know I’m far from what most consider beautiful or gorgeous and that’s okay… I’m happy to be me. Today the reflection in that mirror wasn’t hideous at all and it took me by surprise. It was a really nice moment and I hope that it stays with me.
Something important is reaching it’s final point. Accept that everything in life has a beginning, middle and end. Welcome the fact that every process, every situation contains its own dissolution. We can’t start a process and be done with it if we have not allowed ourselves to go all the way through it. Don’t be afraid of the ending. Endings are needed for new beginnings.
10 of Fire – Oppression
Are you sitting on your energy? Holding on to it too tight? If you hold on too tightly .. your energy cannot flow. Let go of what inner stresses may be holding you back. Begin meditations to help release this tension. You cannot move forward by holding back your energy. Let go. Allow it to flow.
Mother of Air – Self-Awareness
Let go of those ideas of who you think you should be, who others think you should be and allow yourself to be YOU. Own who you are and let all other masks fall away. Trust in who you are and the gifts that dwell inside you. Your development will move forward more quickly by letting go of all preconceived notions of those expectations we put on ourselves and those that others may project onto us as well. Don’t be afraid to be yourself and don’t fear letting others see the true you.