Month: November 2013

Trusting Spirit

tempgaugeToday has been one of the oddest days for me in a long time. It all started first thing this morning when I was headed to work. I decided to go a different way than I usually go and I found myself stuck in a long line of traffic. At some point, sitting there in that line I looked down and saw my temperature gauge a hair from being all the way at the top, sitting on the H for HOLY SHIT BALLS IT’s HOT! I changed my rout, praying the whole way that I would at least make it to work. While the car was moving the gauge would go down but at every light it would start creeping back up to that dreaded H.

I get to work and wait for my husband to get into his office so I could tell him what happened and see what he wanted me to do. He suggested I go ahead and go to the garage to get it fixed. So here I am on the road again, all tense worried something might go wrong before I get to where I’m going. Again, the car was fine while I was moving but at every light the gauge liked to torment me. There is a bookstore just a few blocks from the garage so I stopped off quick to grab a book someone suggested was a good read… I thought I might need this having to sit at the garage for God knows how long. So I grabbed the book and made my way to the garage.

They take my car quickly and check everything they could possibly check and let it run for nearly an hour and the gauge never moved. CONFUSED!! LOL.. so the garage suggested they drive it around town to see how it does and they did. Still NOTHING from that gauge. Over 3 hours at the garage and NOTHING. My car seems perfectly fine and the gauge is no longer moving toward that dreaded H.

From that point I started feeling like I was where I was for a reason. Was it all about stopping to get that book and having the time to read it? I would have never stopped to get it otherwise, I do know that much. Was it about not being at the office for some unknown reason? Is there something else, some other reason for all this? I have no idea but what I do know is that the Universe is creating something right now for me. What exactly that is … is still unknown to me.

I’ve had this feeling before and in the past I would struggle against it but today.. I let go and I TRUSTED that I was where I was suppose to be when I was suppose to be there.

The feeling is like you are a game piece being moved around a game board in the Universe without knowing which game you are in and why you are being moved around.

I giggle at myself and I see Spirit saying well we have told you about this book… we gave you the information and left you filled with curiosity and yet you still did not get the book. Hmmmmmmmmmmm .. how shall we make this hard-headed woman stop everything else she is doing to get this book and read it! I know we will screw with her car and laugh as no one else can see what she’s talking about.. LOL

Only time will tell what today was really all about… but for now all I know is that it was very ODD! A kind of enjoyable ODD .. but still very ODD.

Many Blessings,

P.S. The book I’ve been referencing is Journey of Souls by Michael Newton

My Birthday

IMG_2933Yep today is my birthday … but instead of being happy, I’m very emotional and ready for it to end. This happens every year. I know it’s coming and I try to mentally prepare… I try to get over my obstacles but I have yet to find the trick that works.

You see I have a terrible history when it comes to my birthday, let me explain, then you’ll understand me a little bit more. Growing up I had maybe 2 parties on my birthday one when I was in 1st grade and another when I was 16. Yep that’s it. You see my mother always said she didn’t want to have a party for me because she didn’t want people to think they had to buy me something. She didn’t want others to buy me gifts. I understand that concept because it’s not about the gifts it’s about celebrating your life. It’s about those you love and care for coming together to celebrate the fact that you were born and that you exist in this world.

I understood this even at a very young age but what was hard is going to all my cousins’ birthday parties and giving them gifts and watching them be celebrated while I wasn’t worth celebrating. At least that’s certainly how it felt. I got to watch as others were celebrated and I had to participate in celebrating everyone else, including my mother’s birthday and my dad’s … oh dear would she always get upset if she wasn’t celebrated enough. She was never happy with what others did for her. Nothing was ever exactly how she wanted it.. so I had to prepare for that as well, the backlash that came with her being overly unhappy on her birthday.

So even now I have a hard time with my own birthday. I don’t know how to let go of all those years of holding in the pain. I had to always mask my feelings and just get over it. I wish I knew how to let it go and make it go away but even with all the wisdom, spirit messages and well wishes I just can’t find that magical thing that helps.

I don’t want anyone to feel sorry or bad for me and I don’t want to chat about it … I just want all those years washed away and I want to not feel this way every single year. Distractions are the best … diving deep into a project or doing something completely not related to my birthday is my only way to cope and get beyond this moment.

Now you all have a little understanding for one of my worst pains.

If you see me on one of my birthdays and I’m acting what you might think is a little odd… now you’ll understand why. Just remember … it’s not you … it’s me. LOL

At least I always know that TOMORROW will be a much better day! 🙂

Many Blessings,

Help with Visualization

fb cover 2Visualization is greatly helpful in meditation, in dreaming more vividly and in creative endeavors. Some struggle when it comes to visualization so I thought I would help you teach yourself how to improve those skills.

Find a relaxing spot and make yourself comfortable. Now image something simple like a simple white ball. Once you can see that ball clearly in your mind make it do something like glow or spin. Now make it spin faster or glow more brightly. At each step, practice it and get yourself comfortable seeing it before moving on to something else. Once you have perfected the spinning or glowing effect make the ball do something else like bounce or change colors.

Once you have perfected the ball and have practiced this many times and feel comfortable that you can see this anytime you choose you can move to something more advanced.

Your next level might be something like visualizing a flower and once you have that flower pictured in your mind have it open up in full bloom. Take your time and do this slowly no need to rush it. You can practice making it open and close and once you are comfortable with that flower, change flowers and repeat.

There are many things you can choose to start off with and or advance to. Practice each image until you are comfortable enough with each one that you feel like you can do it without giving it much thought.

Here are a few other images you might want to try:

~ Opening and closing doors or windows

~ An open window with curtains blowing in the wind, the curtains then gain more detail

~ A field, and then within that field you see animals or flowers and then you can make those animals or flowers do things

~ Image walking through your own house, room by room seeing all that is in it. Imagine yourself sitting down in one of them and turning on the tv and then changing channels

~ Do the same as above but walk though your neighborhood or your town.

~ You can image animals and have them do things ….

There is no limits to your imagination.. just start simply and allow yourself to progress slowly. It’s not a race, no one is timing you. Work at your own pace and be patient with yourself.

Many Blessings,

Spiritually Speaking…

IMG_3964This blog post isn’t anything at all to do with anyone’s Spirituality, the spiritually speaking I’m talking about today has to do with your own communication with Spirit.

I know many out there struggle with trusting when their messages come from Spirit or is it what they wish it to be. They are afraid of making the wrong choices, they allow their fears to get in the way… blocking the communication between themselves and Spirit.

So how do you know when the thoughts that pop into your head or those feelings that come over are from Spirit or just your imagination?

I’m not quite sure how to answer this, all I can do is tell you what I do. When feelings or messages come to me I deliver them. I send them out into the world to land where they are needed. It took me years to trust myself enough to do this. It started with baby steps. I would only send out what I felt were smaller messages and messages that could very well be for anyone. As I started this journey and began actually voicing these messages I found that more and more messages came. I found myself delivering more and more of these messages. I found myself also receiving more personal messages for me alone. The more I did  and the more I trusted the more came to me and still today I sometimes struggle with “Oh no what if I’m wrong” but most of the time I suck it up, take a deep breath and let the message be heard. I am always amazed when the message is spot on… and once it’s delivered and I get feedback with a “thank you” or “I really needed that” or “that helped me so much” … this encourages me and fills me with the trust I need to continue delivering messages to those that need it.

Take baby steps and trust that feeling inside you.

Many Blessings,

Beneath the Samhain Moon

IMG_3847Halloween Night 2013

Last night I danced beneath the Samhain Moon. It wasn’t quite what one might think a dance beneath the Samhain moon might be. There were no spooky spirits flying about, no black cats and scary bats, no goblins, no ghosts. There were no mystical chants, no candles burning bright … just me dancing beneath the moon light. Let me explain a little more about my Samhain night….

There I was standing beneath the crescent moon in a misty fog when I was taken by the hand and guided down a path. I wondered where I was being guided and why but I  did not hesitate and I did not fear the journey ahead of me. I felt safe and secure, so I took the strangers hand and I put one foot in front of another and I walked slowly and calmly down this path. I wasn’t sure where I was or where I was going but something inside me knew this was a path I must take. Suddenly the stranger stops and turns to me, looks me in the eyes and with a mutual understanding we began to dance. No words were ever spoken. We danced and danced, twirled and swayed to music that wasn’t even there. The scene was all dressed in shades of gray with a reflective lake just to the right of the path and the crescent moon directly above. There was a low lying mist of mystery that danced along with us as the night passed. I kept wondering what this was and what it all meant. There was such a feeling of calm and peace that surrounded us and filled my entire being. I could not have been more at ease than I was this night.

So who was this stranger in the night?

To my surprise I found that it was none other than LOVE itself. What a great feeling this was. I was granted the most magical night of all. To dance with love through the night, ending with a sweet embrace of knowing that Love is always with me. It is the seed that is my beginning and that has grown as I have grown through the years and that shall continue with me when my Earthly days are gone and together we return to the light.

UPDATE – October 2015

I guess what I should add to this story … now that it is 2 years later and makes it all the more magical… At the time of this vision, my life was completely void of love. I felt heartbroken every day. My spirit was in pain but I had hopes.. I have always had hopes that the pain would someday fade away and that love would prevail. The universe saw me suffering and made changes to my life so that I would no longer suffer that kind of pain I was making myself endure for so long. I am filled with gratitude to the Universe. Love is no longer a dream… love is inside me and with me and all around me.

Many Blessings,

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