I’ve been called by many names…. some good, some bad. It has taken me many years to realize that it doesn’t matter what others know me by, what matters is how I know myself. It doesn’t matter what they want to call me… it only matters what I believe within myself to be true.
This is something, I’m sure that we all struggle with from time to time… “Not letting the voice of others get stuck in our head“.
Words hurt and they stick to us like some sort of gorilla glue…. that shit is nearly impossible to get off. It takes a conscious ongoing effort to stop those words from hanging around in our heads. A daily reminder that their words are more of a reflection of them than us. Their words, their opinions… only have meaning to us if we allow them to. Only if we do in fact act out what they have suggested, do we become what they say we are.
Be kind to yourself and don’t be one of those people who sends out those hurtful “gorilla glue” words to others.
Today while grinding some of my stained glass for a project I’m working on a thought came to mind… My thoughts were of how I was feeling at that very moment and about where I am right now in my life. I reflected for a moment about where I’ve come from and of the road that has brought me to right now.
I pondered all the seeking that I have done along the road and then thought …
“hmmmmm … what is it that I seek now?”
I couldn’t think of a single thing. (Which surprised me!)
It’s not that I don’t have anything left to learn.. it’s more so that I have found ME!
I found my place in this life and my purpose.. I have found what fills me and I have found my own inner happiness.
No longer do I feel that limbo, unknowing of where my road leads and of who I am or suppose to be.
I still have no idea where my road will go.. I’m just not so worried about it anymore. Some may say that just comes with age.. where ever it came from, I don’t care. I just know that I am finally at peace inside myself. I am no longer afraid of what if and what’s next and that not knowing of the days to come. I take each day as it is and as it comes. No longer stressing daily of “OMG.. I need to know every step.. every turn.. every obstacle that may or may not be coming!”.
Today I am happy in LIVING LIFE.. enjoying all moments large and small.