The answer should be: YOU!
I know through all my years of living that the above answer has rarely, if ever been “Me”. All too often I have allowed others to be the carrier of MY happiness. Why the heck have I done that!!!!! How many times do I have to do this to know that this is not how it works. Someone else should not determine how happy I am at any given moment. Easier said than done. I know many of you will nod your head and agree with me on that.
Whether it be that we just want to be equally liked, loved, admired, wanted or needed, we tend to place our happiness on others and usually without even telling them that we have done so. We do this with the pretense of thinking that they should just know that what they say and do effects YOUR happiness. Silly us… what are we thinking???
Many times we have done this and many times we end up in tears or just plain ol’ unhappy in general. Yet we continue doing it, over and over again. Why oh why?
How do we stop this train wreck? Again, this is easier said than done… but we must find our own happiness. We have to stop handing it over to someone else and take care of it on our own. I’m really not sure how this is going to work and how effectively I can pull this off, but what I do know is that I have to try. I have to start making a conscience effort daily to find that happy place inside myself and breathe in, breathe out and be content with each moment. I have to stop worrying if someone else likes me, loves me, admires me, wants me, cares for me, values me, or any other way someone interacts with or feels about me.
I have to find the happiness within myself.. in the ways that I’m not happy with myself, I need to make the necessary changes so that I can be happier who I am. I’m not saying one should be vain or conceited about themselves… no one likes arrogance. What I am saying though, is that we cannot base how we feel at any given point or another on whether or not someone else feels that way about us.
Today is a new day .. today I vow to be happy with myself and within myself.. it’s not going to be easy … but nothing worth doing, ever is!